I am in love with my husband. We have been married almost 4 years. Together 10 years, we are high school sweethearts. There are hard times. Times you want to run away and times you wonder how you can stay with one person your whole life… But there is this very REAL love and that can get us through all. Holding his hand is connecting to my other self.
I cannot find a home without you
I don’t have time to cry or the energy to cope
I find things rough right now
Hard to hold onto reality
Sick of eyes I don’t want to see what’s happening
I wait for peace and I dig through my mind
Digging and digging in my mind
Anger is a beast that must be fought with love. The only resolution to this problem is understanding and patience. Or death.
Life is a constant obstacle course. You work so hard to get to the top, the view is great and the air is fresh. But you must get down and face your obligation to move forward. And so the journey continues.
I had my surgery. RNY Gastric Bypass on the 6th. It was most definitely a brave and amazing choice to make for myself. I am doing fantastic with the help of my amazing husband and the love that just beams off of my son into my heart. I am walking this path, too weak for an obstacle course yet ;).
Feeling I need my mother and I am trying to convince her to come and help me on the journey. She lives in Costa Rica so it’s quite the trip as I live in the northern US. Wrote her an email tonight we will see if she has time to come.